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Home Sweet Home

So what is the quickest way to fall in love with home? Leave it. Even briefly. You know I have these “dreams” of living somewhere besides here. Anywhere besides here. I am beginning to believe it is just boredom taking over my imagination for a moment. Even when I make little shopping trips to the city ( a WHOLE 75 miles), I can be gone most of a day and all of the sudden I am homesick. I want to go home. To sit in MY chair. Use MY bathroom. Sleep in MY bed. Eat MY food. I am done…finished…through…ready to leave ASAP. So what in the world makes me think I can ever leave this place? I have before – again, briefly. I cried. I dreamed. I planned. I begged. To go home. So then I begin to wonder what makes it so. What makes me feel so very comfortable here? Because you know feeling a sense of “home” is all about comfort. Security. Familiarity. Contentment.

I do feel safe here. As safe as I would anywhere. I live outside a very small rural town. VERY small. VERY rural. So small and rural that the absolute biggest excitement is the fact that we are getting a Sonic Drive In. And rumor has it there are plans for a Super Walmart. Just what we need, a bigger Walmart. YUCK. A friend and I were just talking yesterday about what would happen to the local family owned grocery store if indeed a Super Walmart is built. Nothing I hope but I know better.

I love our little green house at the end of a dirt road. I love the privacy. The quiet. The cows across the road. I love my kitchen and my shoppe and our schoolroom. I love our cozy bedroom – one others might consider crowded but I like the fact that I have to squeeze beside the bed spread the covers up. I love my Granny Smith Apple Green bathroom. I love how red geraniums look against the pale green siding. I love the arbors over all our gates and the tiny pink fairy roses that cover them. I love our “secret sidewalk” that Husband found when he was doing some landscaping. That’s what Ben called it – he was about 4 I suppose and was thrilled with the rugged walkway Husband uncovered. I love the BIG oak trees and their gnarled roots. Especially this heart shaped one:


What would it be like for no one to know me? What if I lived in a place where I couldn’t write a check without an ID? Or have a charge account at the grocery store? Or go to the grocery and not talk to almost everyone you see because you actually know them and they know you and they ask about your mom and your kids and your husband. And they know everything that has happened in the past two weeks and are truly interested. Or knew the law (that’s what we call it down here…The Law…as in policemen not as in legalities). Just this week I went into the jewelry store to pick up a ring I was having sized and a couple of birthday presents. I am 47+ years old. The ring I was having sized was a turquoise ring set in yellow gold that Husband gave me for Christmas the first year we were together. So nearly 33 years ago. When I was trying it on, Debbie (the owner of the jewelry store) says to me “I remember selling him this ring.” WHAT? No kidding. That was very cool. And of course we talked all about him being gone and where and when he’d be home and then she noticed I was wearing his wedding ring on a chain around my neck. I told her we just thought it was one of those “keep a low profile” decisions. Our wedding rings are inscribed in Hebrew and seeing as how 99% of the population of Tunisia is Muslim, we decided he’d leave it home. It may seem silly but they were told no American Flags on clothing etc…so we just took it a step further. Anyway…she tells me she has something that might replace it if he wanted to wear one. A tungsten steel carbine wedding ring. It is beautiful. And virtually scratch proof. Here is a picture:


I think he will like it. It didn’t cost and arm and a leg and I plan on calling it a Father’s Day gift so he can’t argue with me about it.

How’s all that for getting side tracked!!! Sorry but it how my mind works. Weaving in and out of conversations, ideas, stories…no wonder I have trouble finishing things!

So back to the familiar aspect of home. I have lived here for all but two years of the past 33. So familiar is an understatement. I can’t begin to tell you how much I hated it here when my family moved here. One word – loathe. But…then I met The Man. And all was well with my world. So I have some very VERY fond memories of this place and know deep down I would miss it if we were to move. But if it ever happens I know also, my home is where he is, where we set up house. I know now at this age, I will feel home wherever Husband is.

I rambled on about all this to say Husband said something to me I never thought would come out of his mouth. “I LOVE AMERICA. I love the food – white bread and thick, juicy steaks. The abundance. The opportunity. The freedom. The technology. You think you know how good we have it seeing pictures and news from around the world. But you have to SEE it to appreciate it. ” Leaving it may make him patriotic after all. But probably not. He just misses home and its familiarity. And me and the children of course. I said to him, “You are never taking me to Europe, are you? I got a passport for nothing.” “NO, NO, I will.” he says. “But you would never want to live anywhere but where we live now. I can assure you of that. ” He’s probably right. He usually is.



I will be emailing the winners shortly…but here are the results! Tried the video but couldnt make it work. They are listed by their comment #
Third Place #41 Amber
Second Place #52 Danielle
GRAND PRIZE #96 Georgeanne

I will try the video again later!


Mother's Day was a wonderful day!

I cooked everything myself – like a grown up! I started off the morning by making my mom a lovely breakfast and taking it over to her…


Then began preparing what ended up being a 2 o’clock meal. Which is pretty typical when we all get together.  We had chicken/rice at my son-in-law’s request. I made a vat of it so he could have some for lunch today. I baked a ham, make au gratin potatoes that were the yummiest! In fact when my nephew arrived yesterday afternoon he asked where the famous potatoes were! They were all gone…so what is a good aunt to do? Make another batch for supper. He said they were awesome. This very thoughtful nephew brought me a picture frame for Mother’s Day. He and I have always been tight. Very thoughtful of him.

My middle son and his wife gave me two hanging plants for my back porch…they are lovely! He is working so I talked to him a couple of times yesterday.

Little Grandson went back home yesterday afternoon. He wasnt ready to go I think. I am sure he will be back very soon. He loves being here.

My mom had a very good day and enjoyed her company tremendously. My youngest brother couldnt be here due to work but will be here Tuesday to spend a few days with her.

Back to the menu…let’s see…

  • Potatoes Au Gratin
  • Baked Ham
  • Chicken & Rice
  • String Beans
  • Corn
  • Fresh Cucumbers & Tomatoes
  • Rolls
  • Peach Cobbler, Cupcakes and Brownies (everyone likes different sweets!)

mdgoodies-copy.jpgI think that’s it. I am really not used to cooking for that many people and doing the whole meal…other than the potatoes the amounts were perfect and everyone enjoyed their meal.

I have lots of phone calls to make today to try and schedule appointments for my mom to see a pulmonary specialist about the mass in her lung. Her primary doctor wants her to have a needle biopsy ASAP. This will be done in Shreveport so my brother and his wife will be able to help some with the traveling. In fact I think she might stay with them a couple of days on both sides of the procedure to make her trip less hard. I know how tired my dad got of all the doctor trips but would never had stayed away from my mom so we went back and forth in a day.

Lots of changes in the near future. But we will do what we have always done and weather the storm. What choice do we have? We cannot crumple into a corner and cry ourselves silly. There are things to do. Plans to make. Procedures to schedule. On top of all our daily work. And when all is said and done, we will have done our very best.

My spirits have been up even with the bad news of the week simply because I have had some contact via phone with Husband. I heard Hannah telling Jessica yesterday how that first phone call from him made me over to a whole new person. She thought it very sweet but a little odd. When they have been with a man for almost 34 years they will understand. Just the sound of their voice makes a calm come over you. He is so very sorry he is not here physically to help me with all the goings on. He wants me to schedule my gall bladder surgery while he is home…that might not happen. Depending on all this other stuff. And the poor man wants a hamburger and some Bunny Bread. Bunny bread is a brand of sliced white bread available locally. It is soft, and moist and you could sculpt it is so dense! More like cake than bread. The food in Tunisia is edible but “not good” in his words. He said he will be doing some serious cooking while he is home. So when we pick him up at the airport Thursday night, I will have him two sandwiches made with Bunny Bread and a bag of homemade chocolate chip cookies. Thursday will be here before I know it as much as I have to do. But won’t be here soon enough. I miss that man.

It is a little after 5 a.m. here so I am going to try and get some sewing done before everyone is up. Have a wonderful day!

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