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Mar
01
2008

Pride Goeth Before A Fall

Good Saturday! Before I forget – 1)I apologize for not posting more about the book we read for the book club.  My whole week has been extremely busy from sick kids to this remodel we are about to finish up. 2) also I apologize for not saying more about the new book we are starting but if you will venture over to the book club page, I posted about it a bit.  Quickly – Jane Austen’s Persuasion and start it now…8 chapters a week- Discussions on Friday with questions posted by me to get it rolling.  And I will try to do better but PLEASE jump in!

Now to the pride/fall issue. I don’t know if any of you know (or care for that matter ;) ) I had hysterectomy, May 25 will be 2 years.  Nothing serious like the BIG C.  I was full of cysts and quite frankly, I think Mrs. U (uterus to the rest of you) had had enough!  After 6 kids, 4 of them c-sections and a couple of them not normal human baby size, she was past retirement time.   I was very anemic and just had put it off about a year too long.  To say I was not a nice person at the time of my surgery (and the year prior to) is an understatement.  The kids joke now that the dr took my Mojo as well because pretty much you have to kick me in the shin to get a fight out of me.  Before – don’t EVEN look at me wrong.  Or right some days.  At the time of my surgery Dr. L said my Mrs. U looked like she was about 5 months pregnant.  NO WONDER my tummy was so HUGE!  And I hadnt slept on my stomach in two years.  So Mrs. U and I parted company and I dont know how she felt about it but it was the best thing I had done for myself in – well forever! I loved the new and improved me.  I could sit on cloth furniture and car seats without one of those blue pads from the hospital.  I could buy new underwear in WHITE or BEIGE!! And the money we saved on sanitary products we could go on vacation with!  Plus, to spite the children feeling their mom has been de-Mojo-ed, I had no idea I could feel so good.  I have not had a migraine since the day of my surgery. AND my new waist line was a plus.  I lost weight, wore jeans again…cool.   And I then opened my big mouth.  I said on more than one occasion ~”I guess I am going to be one of those very few, lucky women who doesnt blow up after a hysterectomy.” Oh woe is me.  In the last 6 – 9 months I have probably gained 20 pounds (pounds that incidentally, I didnt need to begin with) and my behind is two ax handles wide.  I don’t know exactly how wide  that is, I think it varies between “wow” and “WHOA!” ~ but it was a saying of my dad’s (most of his sayings I cannot repeat here!) and seems appropriate.  I don’t think it helped that I had to have my gall bladder out last Summer and now can enjoy the heck out of food again.  Can I give you more excuses? My husband is gone a month at the time and I do “feel sorry for myself” eating.  I am so close to 50 I can taste it. I was a fat baby. Most of the women in my family went thru fat stages.  That’s reaching isnt it?  All this to say, I was very proud of myself for not becoming middle aged (which I am thoroughly enjoying) AND fat.  Or fatter by most standards.  So my pride is gone.  About this anyway.  If you know me in real life you know I have no lack of self esteem.  I am going to have to work at this weight thing.  Might even have to exercise (I hate that word) on a regular basis. And GET OFF THE CARBS.  I guess the first day of March is a good enough time to start.  I can do it.  Once I even got off sugar completely.  For about 4 months. Lost 30 pounds.  Then like a junkie I took that first hit again and down I went. Crash and burn.  I am not saying I will get off sugar completely for any length of time but I think I need to de-tox myself again.  I expect to get sick and feel awful for a week or so but then I will feel so much better.  And will travel better – I do have the big trip in just 5 weeks.  I can’t lose much between now and then but I can certainly lose 10 or so pounds and that will feel some better.  Husband swears the trip alone will take it off  of me.  Change in diet.  No ready access to junk food.  No Bunny Bread.  No cheap bagged chocolate at every little store I walk into. Having to walk more than usual.  I hope he’s right.  He usually is.

So there you have it.  Happy March!

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Of course you can do it….you go girl…even losing a couple pounds feels huge. I have my pon poms a waving for you!

I can totally relate to your post today! I am getting hooked up with a Gyn to see about a hysterectomy or something to help with all my female plumbing problems that won’t just go away. I had PMS mood swings so severe that I upped my “happy pills” to give my family a break. They are very happy I did; hubby tells me that during those special 2 weeks pre-period, my eyes would change and I’d become a different person. Um…not a happy one!

I am tired of worrying about leaving “puddles” behind…and I HAVE… of the severe pain I get… just all that crap! I’m not worried about weight gain ~ no one will notice it with the weight I already am!

I need to lose some weight and get a little more active. I am hypoglycemic and probably headed towards Type II diabetes if I don’t shape up.

I’m 44 soon, so starting to lean towards that side of 50. I already lived in Europe (for 3-1/2 yrs); good thing you are only going to visit because the food over there is far superior to food in North America!!

Geez, you’d think with 6 kids your Mrs. U would have done you a favour and WALKED out on its own! I only have 2 kids and am ready to heave it out!! You are a brave woman.

As to eating when hubby is gone for 1 month… who needs that excuse? My kids stay home sick from school and I’m heading for the food cupboard! Wait until this week of March break is over!! Cripes and you homeschool, don’t you???

Laura

I am 44 & have gained my own 20lbs in the last couple years on top of the babyfat that I never got rid of. Maybe on top of the book club we can cheer eachother on for some healthier eating & weight loss?!!

Can’t wait to see your questions for PERSUASION.

Have a great Sunday

Laura

Barbara

Oh I love that saying, about the two axe handles. Never heard it before but I think it suits me too!

I put on a lot of weight after giving up smoking and never got rid of it – but I’m trying. When I hold up my jeans before clambering into them I always think ‘gosh they’re huge’ but they fit nice as anything!!
Good luck with the sugar detox. I’m sure you’ll do great. Fab incentive you have anyway. That holiday is coming round so fast.

Looking forward to reading Jane Austen this week and we can certainly rally together while we have the next 4 weeks that we are reading to encourage a HEALTHIER March! Have a great week!

Good luck with the weight loss. I too had the big “H” 12 years ago. Same problems as you. I’m pushing 50 myself and have about 30 pounds to drop. I rejoined Weight Watchers and have lost 10 pounds in the past 6 weeks. . . YEAH!!! I still need to loose 25 – 30 I think. It’s the age, metabolism slows down and this dang menopausal stuff. Still have my ovaries so it’s the hormal crappy stuff. Yeah, we women get cursed again!!

Oh well, I can take it off the same way I put it on. . . one pound at a time.

Blessings,

Sher

You go girl! I so need to lose some weight myself. I just haven’t been able to find the motivation I need.